Lesson learned

It has barely been a month. You can tell from my relatively frequent posting that my mind is probably on overdrive right now. Well, as they say, the heart rules the mind.

I know you've told me once before, "You trust people too much, you're bound to get hurt". I should have listened. I think i finally understand what you meant.

People only tell you what you want to hear. They tell you "I love you" so you'll think you're loved. They say "I want to be with you" so you'll think its forever. Truth is, they're afraid. Afraid to tell you the truth for fear of losing you. Only to find out that in the end, that they do in fact, love you. They dont mean to be hurtful, they just end up crushing your heart in a vice grip. Are they liars? I dont think so. Are they confused? Probably.

I'm not saying im better than these people. On the contrary, I'm the type to declare undying love, to do everything to stay in love, to believe everything I hear. I'm not afraid to get hurt, what's life without a little pain? The sad part is, I mean everything i say. I know its a little hard to believe, but really I do. I think that's the cause of me getting overly dramatic. I love too much. I care too much. Call me emo, I dont care. All I want is someone who'll take care of me. Someone that will mean what they say. Someone who'll be careful of the hearts they trample on.

I want to be happy, that's why i risk trusting people.

Am I wrong for trusting people?

No.

I just haven't found the right one.